I had a sudden craving for steak, so I stopped by a steakhouse on my way home from work. Sitting right in front of me was a couple in their mid-40s with a girl who looked like she was in second grade. It turned out it was her birthday, and at some point, the staff brought out a cake. They sang the birthday song, and the other customers in the restaurant clapped. It felt like I was being shown this perfect image of a happy family. And there I was, sitting alone, eating my steak while watching them. It was a pretty tough scene to be part of.
July 5, 2024, 10:30 PM, at the workshop.
無性にステーキが食べたくなって、仕事帰りにブロンコビリーに寄った。自分の目の前の席に40代中盤位の夫婦と小学校2年生位の女の子が食べていたのだけど、その子の誕生日だったらしく、途中でケーキが運ばれてきた。店員がバースデーソングを歌って、店内の他のお客さんから拍手が送られていた。幸せな家族像を見せつけられている感じ。その家族を真正面から見ながらステーキを食べる男一人。なかなか厳しかった。
2024.7.5 夜10時半 工房にて